Obituary for Suspira

I am afraid to say from what I know that the player behind Sus has indeed passed away. The rumour mill has done it rounds to many re Suspira and their passing, so I shall answer it here and probably do an inadequate job in trying to pass on my thoughts and feelings for them and their family, but I shall try.

Not even sure where to start really, apart from the pain and shock I felt at the news and have done ever since with many tears shed. Given this is someone I have never met or spoken to by the phone, skype etc then this should start to tell you something of their great character, that they could effect others in such a way. It was a hammer blow to my very core and one I will always remember, but that was just the event and it tells nothing of why I, and I am sure, many others will remember.

A person who was quite unique, always competitive, deciding to accomplish something and then to work and work to do it. Faced with impossible odds, the answer: Try harder, do more, learn more, just finding a way to be better. I understand that Sus very much enjoyed their time in game and had many friends and people to enjoy the time with. I will try and avoid saying what Sus would think, one it is too damn painful, and second people will all have their own thoughts and impressions.

For me the best thing about the person behind the avatar was the personality and the character. Having spent hours a day with them for the last couple of years or so, I can only be thankful for knowing them. In conversation about the most difficult things in people's lives, including mine, a willing listener was always there. Any who have had the time to get to know Sus will have appreciated the sense of fun and humour that was always present, you may not have got it always, but it was always there even during what must have been the most difficult and painful of times.

I am sure you will all have your own thoughts and tales of your experiences with Sus, some good and probably some in game you may not have liked. But either way the character always kind natured, you don't get the nick name healing queen on a whim of people. I don't really want to touch on the game character too much, because such was the character of the actual person it would be wrong to think of them as a mere avatar. I have had some of the most enjoyable conversations with someone I could not see. To communicate so powerfully and inventively by text alone was a most wonderful gift. Some call it odd, but everyone's sense of humour does not always agree with another's. And Sus's sense of mirth was always wider than their girth (whatever that might have been) "> .

When I heard what happened, it felt as though a hole had been ripped through me, it feels worse now that it is sinking in. I am sorry Sus that I cannot do justice to you in this simple post. There is too much you did, too many things you have helped people with, too much laughter shared, and now on my part too many tears. I look each time logging on hoping beyond hope that you may appear but of course that gaping hole will never be filled again.

With hindsight I get it but I am just so sorry I couldn't say goodbye. But thanks for logging in so somebody could and I hope you felt as always that you were among friends and family.

As I said at the top of this, I can not do you justice as to your character and personality but I will always remember you. I have shed 1000 tears and likely 10000 more till it all sinks in. But for knowing you and the million laughs that were shared then I would take that 100 times over.

Most of all I really want to say I just miss my very good friend.

RF

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Rest in Peace brave warrior, strong pally and warm friend

Im gonna miss your glyp for elite fight, your healing and our chit chat

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I have known Suspira for almost 4 years now. No words could describe my shock at this. Rest in peace, sweetie xx
I will never forget my very first time as Captain of a ship. Sus took me out and helped me through my first shootout. It was one of the best moments in the game for me. Ever since I started playing all I wanted to do was to be Captain in SB's. Sus helped me along the way, fighting Torlings, healing me when I needed it. My common reply was often "> (my guardian angel). Always an inspiration for me to push harder in every aspect of the game, especially the tedious ones, like being at every Hero event and killing mobs nonstop for reputation points and tracked beasts. Just an great individual, always upbeat, light hearted, and fun to converse with. I will truly miss Suspira. ">">
A great loss for a world where kindness and selfless assistance is endangered.

There is a poem in spanish that recites: "Dead are not those who lie in sweet calm in the cold tomb, dead are those with a dead soul and still live".

So Sus is not dead, she is just living a better life now.

All my respects to her memory.
This is incredibly sad news. She was a good friend and this is a big loss to me and all of the people she touched
I was waiting and hoping to find out that this was either some bad miscommunication or a hacked account with a petulant child creating needlessness drama. But as the days go on and Sus does not log on - then one can only assume it is true. I have my special memories of the heartfelt chats and conversations I shared with Suspira in the past and the occasional out-of-the-blue "hello hunny" pms. I will miss those but will remember them always. Suspira was a player who one strives to be like....fair - straight to the point - helpful - good natured. Suspira had given me both game and real life advice in the past...and it will not be forgotten.
My heart goes out to the family and Suspira. I will miss your sweet whispers to me. A wonderful person and deserving of the lovely words written so beautifully about her. Cheers to making the game livelier when you were here.
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May Sus RIP. It's sad to see that yet another player will never log back in again due to going to better fields.
She was in my first cave group, miss those days hun, miss you.
Sucks i never got to really meet him R.I.P
Rest in peace. Many fun memories of you.
Thanks
I was so sad to hear the news of her passing. I will always remember her as a kind and fun player.
I had stopped playing DE a while back. Recently – and quite out of the blue actually – I had just been reminded of DE and thought to visit the forum to see what’s been up with the game that I had played for 2.5 years collectively in Aer and Nova.

I am shocked to my core to see this thread. And I am compelled to add a few humble words in memory of such a great person.

Elitists was the first and only guild I had ever joined in Nova. I had known Suspira since my first day as an Elitist. Simply put, Sus was our backbone. From her training me and DW as Captain in SBs, fighting and backing the rest of us up in bcs, trading/selling of resources or simply just chatting and joking around in the guild, Sus was always there. No one can deny her prowess in battle, her perseverance to excel, her devotion to the guild and its members, and her dedication to the game.

Till today, I reminisce over the good times I’ve had and the friends I’ve made in DE. It was the longest game I’ve had played and will forever be etched in my memory. Now, I will think back of DE with a tinge of sadness, for the world of Adan have lost one of the greatest persons DE could ever have.

Rest in peace Sus; your legacy in DE lives on.

To my guildies in Elitists, fight hard, fight strong. Keep the fires in you burning.

To my friends since Aer days and you know who you are, you’ll always be in my heart.

To DW and Hacker, thank you for everything.
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