Obituary for Suspira

I am afraid to say from what I know that the player behind Sus has indeed passed away. The rumour mill has done it rounds to many re Suspira and their passing, so I shall answer it here and probably do an inadequate job in trying to pass on my thoughts and feelings for them and their family, but I shall try.

Not even sure where to start really, apart from the pain and shock I felt at the news and have done ever since with many tears shed. Given this is someone I have never met or spoken to by the phone, skype etc then this should start to tell you something of their great character, that they could effect others in such a way. It was a hammer blow to my very core and one I will always remember, but that was just the event and it tells nothing of why I, and I am sure, many others will remember.

A person who was quite unique, always competitive, deciding to accomplish something and then to work and work to do it. Faced with impossible odds, the answer: Try harder, do more, learn more, just finding a way to be better. I understand that Sus very much enjoyed their time in game and had many friends and people to enjoy the time with. I will try and avoid saying what Sus would think, one it is too damn painful, and second people will all have their own thoughts and impressions.

For me the best thing about the person behind the avatar was the personality and the character. Having spent hours a day with them for the last couple of years or so, I can only be thankful for knowing them. In conversation about the most difficult things in people's lives, including mine, a willing listener was always there. Any who have had the time to get to know Sus will have appreciated the sense of fun and humour that was always present, you may not have got it always, but it was always there even during what must have been the most difficult and painful of times.

I am sure you will all have your own thoughts and tales of your experiences with Sus, some good and probably some in game you may not have liked. But either way the character always kind natured, you don't get the nick name healing queen on a whim of people. I don't really want to touch on the game character too much, because such was the character of the actual person it would be wrong to think of them as a mere avatar. I have had some of the most enjoyable conversations with someone I could not see. To communicate so powerfully and inventively by text alone was a most wonderful gift. Some call it odd, but everyone's sense of humour does not always agree with another's. And Sus's sense of mirth was always wider than their girth (whatever that might have been) "> .

When I heard what happened, it felt as though a hole had been ripped through me, it feels worse now that it is sinking in. I am sorry Sus that I cannot do justice to you in this simple post. There is too much you did, too many things you have helped people with, too much laughter shared, and now on my part too many tears. I look each time logging on hoping beyond hope that you may appear but of course that gaping hole will never be filled again.

With hindsight I get it but I am just so sorry I couldn't say goodbye. But thanks for logging in so somebody could and I hope you felt as always that you were among friends and family.

As I said at the top of this, I can not do you justice as to your character and personality but I will always remember you. I have shed 1000 tears and likely 10000 more till it all sinks in. But for knowing you and the million laughs that were shared then I would take that 100 times over.

Most of all I really want to say I just miss my very good friend.

RF

Comments
Suspira was my friend in DE since I began in 13' She was always funny and had words of wisdom Im going to miss her
You will be missed suspira your in a better place
Its so sad and i cant find the right words...I had just couple of talks to Sus and alls was very nice and im glad i had chance to met her...My sincerely Condolence for her Clan, her Friends and her Familie in this hard Time. Of course we never forget you Sus..R.I.P. Sus... Adan lost great Warrior.
Wow. Shocking news. RIP, Suspira.
Very touching sentiment, RF - very well stated.
R.I.P Sus, we'll miss you, you have been a great warrior and friend, and you will always be in our memories
Sad news indeed! I'll always remember Suspira as kind and friendly. Really was a rock in a game full of drama! A great warrior with a strong competitive nature and a wonderful sense of humor, never failed to make me smile or laugh out loud. Enjoyed our conversations over the last couple of years. She will be missed!!
she was one badass pally.....(eyes)
Rest in peace suspira. we will never forget you as friend and teammate My thoughts are with your family and your friends
Such a shock, will miss you Sus, R.I.P. .

Nice post, well written RF.
We will miss you, I drink to you and we will see you again in the Hall of Heroes in Walhalla.">
this was so very sad to read, one of the nicest people she will definitely be missed.
RIP
Life is Short, so make the most of it. So sorry to hear this news, good epitaph RF. Thanks for so many players commenting, sorry for our loss.
Goodbye Sus. We will miss you. Thank you for all of the great chats and good memories.
I will miss our chats, nice person. Prayers for her family and friends.
She was a kind person, often times healed curses off my main at no charge. rest in peace dear.
RF what a wonderful heartfelt message.
I am in tears, for this game has lost one of the best people it has ever had.
Sus was such a bright star, so helpful, such a good spirit, and so funny !
I have known her since the beginning and can not think of a kinder, sweeter, tougher player !
She was quick with a compliment, heals when you were broke, help when you were wraithed lol, and always there with smiles and flowers.
Lol, I remember I had to sell a piece of gear to repair a broken weapon in 2013 and she pm'd me asking why I was selling it, so I told her, she bought my helm and kept it for 2 days till I did a couple of hops, then sold it back it to me for 1/2 of the cost she bought it, and with a mark to boot ! Such a bright, loving, caring soul. I miss you Sus......see you at the Whine-ry in the sky lol !
One of the few players I truly respected.
The game will never be the same.
I will miss our chats.
Prayers to her family, candles lit forever.
I only wish R.I.P. meant - Return If Possible.
The game should put a statue up in colosseum to honor her !
She was one of the most beautiful souls I've ever had the pleasure to know. She made me smile even when all seemed lost. She was kind, caring, generous, loving, motivating, loving, and so many words I cannot even express properly how cherished she is and will always be. She is an angel and will forever be in our hearts and minds. I am still in shock and cannot believe she is gone. Every Time I log, I look to see if she is on or has been hoping it's not true. My heart is heavy but I know she is still watching over us from her cloud in the sky.
R.I.P
Even though we didn't talk a whole ton...and our clans (when I played) fought, always had respect for you. You always cursed my booboos and I appreciate that. Tons of kisses "> You will be missed. ">
~Mindless
Sus is the only person that do DE her way the Frank Sinatra song. People try to push her buttons and do things because of "them" but Sus will not engage in pity nonsense, only getting reps and having fun doing it. You want prove, here is some prove, she is the first person to heal red curse, only one other person achieved that healing power and she was the first person to get 81K rep on the hardest profession. Pandor is the only other person to do that. Nonsense she is not, perfection she is. Ecstatic for her cause now she is in a place with only perfect people, her time on earth ended way to soon but it is her own fault for being to perfect too fast and u know who is desperate for perfect people right?
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